MS Connection Blog


Why don’t they believe us?

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After months (or even years) of questioning our symptoms, questioning medical professionals, questioning “Web – the Great and Powerful,” and questioning others with multiple sclerosis, we have reached the inevitable answer: we have MS. Why then do so many people feel like they have the right to question us?

Connection works: The disability civil rights movement

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I love the “connection” theme for this year's MS awareness campaign. As scientists are discovering the amazing process by which nerves start to form new connections (remyelination), we in the MS community are also finding new and creative ways of doing the same thing. This month, we are broadening and strengthening connections within our neighborhoods and throughout the world. Connections are often created because there is a common need, combined with a realization that this need can only be met by a group effort. In many cases, the resulting connection stays alive throughout generations and becomes a part of history. Such was the case with a movement that many people still don’t know about: the disability civil rights movement.People with disabilities used to be even more isolated than we are today. Not only were we overlooked in the civil rights laws of the 1960's, but in some cases we underwent forced sterilization and mandatory institutionalization. There was also a general assumption that if we were unable to use a sidewalk or get into a building to apply for a job, it was the unfortunate hand we had been dealt and it was our responsibility to accept and cope with it.Things changed when people with disabilities – all kinds of disabilities – worked together to change peoples’ minds and eventually change the law. Ed Roberts, the “father of the disability rights movement,” used the press in 1967 to persuade University of California, Berkeley  that he could attend classes in an iron lung. In 1977, disability activists organized a five-week sit-in at a government building in San Francisco, until the Carter administration finally implemented regulations to make public buildings accessible. And in 1988, hundreds of students and alumni at Gallaudet University for the Deaf effectively closed down the campus until a deaf president was hired.  It was these types of protests that eventually led to George H. W. Bush signing the Americans with Disabilities Act (ADA) into law in 1990. In fact, the Society just honored a congressionalchampion of the ADA at the annual Public Policy Conference. Although we have a long ways to go before we have finally achieved a society free of disability discrimination, we are in debt to – and forever connected with – these heroes.

Keep moving!

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I’ve been writing, and thinking, about self-advocacy a lot lately. I blogged last week about how simply becoming better informed about issues facing people with MS can be a first step toward advocating for oneself.   I wrote that I don’t have a lot of experience as a self-advocate when it comes to managing my life and my condition. But on further thought, I have recognized one big area in which advocating for myself – by making sure I schedule time to exercise every day – has paid off in a big way. I have placed physical activity at the top of my daily to-do list. Making sure everyone around me recognizes and respects that has taken a bit of effort over the years.  When I was diagnosed, in 2001, lingering doubts remained in some experts’ minds as to whether it was advisable, or safe, for people with MS to engage in physical exercise. It’s hard to believe nowadays, but people with MS were once cautioned to refrain from physical exertion for fear it would exacerbate their symptoms or even hasten the progress of their disease.  But my instincts – and my own neurologist – told me otherwise. I simply knew that running, riding my bike, taking a hike, swimming and (when eventually I discovered it, yoga) made me feel better, stronger, more in control. It might have been easier, in a way, to just sit around on my duff. But my body felt compelled to keep moving.  I was also inspired by the former Olympic skier Jimmy Heuga, who was diagnosed with MS in 1970, when he was 26 and at the peak of his professional skiing career. Though doctors recommended he stop skiing, he didn’t. Heuga, who died in 2010, was a pioneer in helping the general public and physicians understand the benefits of physical exercise to people with MS.  Of course, it’s now widely accepted that physical activity can be enormously helpful to those of us with MS. Appropriately selected exercise can build and maintain muscle strength, coordination and balance. For those whose symptoms are heat-sensitive, alternatives such as swimming or choosing cool environments to exercise in can make physical activity more comfortable.  The National MS Society recently posted on its website a link to a useful article about exercise and MS; aimed primarily at African Americans with MS, the information it offers – particularly its long and varied list of exercise options – is applicable to all of us. The article wisely reminds us to check in with our physicians before embarking on a new exercise routine, just to make sure it’s a good fit.  One fun mode of exercise (one that might not even seem like exercise at all!) is the video game Dance Dance Revolution (DDR), in which on-screen directions guide you through a complicated dance routine. The level of difficulty can be adjusted to accommodate any skill level (thank goodness for me; I’m terrible at DDR!). A studybeing conducted at The Ohio State University Wexner Medical Center is examining whether, for people with MS, DDR can lessen the cognitive and physical impacts of the disease.   According to a press release about the study, “In the ongoing trial, participants exercise using DDR three times a week for eight weeks. The patients’ cognitive functions are tested at the beginning and end of the trial, and functional and structural magnetic resonance imaging is used to detect brain circuitry changes.”The release quotes research team member Nora Fritz as saying, “DDR requires a lot of cognitive processing. Players must look at a screen and time their movements to the arrows on the screen…. Incorporating DDR into standard MS treatments has the potential to improve balance, walking, cognition and motivation.”Those potential benefits aside, when I’m doing DDR – or running, walking, riding, or doing downward-facing dog – I try to concentrate on how good it feels to move and how much fun life can be. Breathing hard, sweating, and using my muscles are things I do for myself to keep my body and mind healthy. They are also things I have learned never to take for granted. Nor do I take for granted the vital role exercise plays in managing my MS. That’s why I insist on taking time to get out and get moving every day – even when I have to assert that need as a top priority. Learn more about exercise and MS at the National MS Society’s Exercise page. 

Old Friend

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"For a long time now I have been aware that you are taking up more of my life everyday..."   - W.H. Auden, Letter to a WoundMy Valentine Ian gave me the most extraordinary present this year: a gleaming silver oligodendrocyte on a chain: Like a starfish, but smoother, less symmetrical, reaching in all directions. Oligodendrocytes are the cells that repair and create myelin, the insulation stripped away by multiple sclerosis. I picture my brain’s oligodendrocytes wrapping their many tentacles around my scarred axons, feverishly working to insulate my nerves. They wear happy, determined faces. But it’s more complicated than that. Now I imagine them lounging on what must be a couch of a partially myelinated axon, chatting, dozing, or just slacking off. As I learn more, the picture changes: these oligodendrocytes have done their work and have retired. They would like to help, but they need more recruits. Research into making the cells that could create those new recruits and remyelinate MS lesions, possibly resulting in restoration of lost function, is just one of the many areas of investigation that might help us understand and possibly cure MS.  I treasure this necklace. It holds symbols of protection and repair. Many years ago Ian gave me my ex-fiancé’s first novel, which I’d helped along in early drafts. On the gift tag he wrote, “I hope I can always give you what other men can’t.” Now, he’s given me a symbol of something my body can’t fully offer.  A friend recently told me she’s had MS 13 years. That’s about as long as Ian and I have been married. Which brings me to the realization that my relationship with MS is the longest-running relationship in my life, twice that of my marriage. Like Auden and his wound, “nothing will ever part us.”  My first eight years with MS were fairly uneventful. I could forget about the disease sometimes. With no treatment options available, I simply adapted. Sometimes, though, riding my horse over jumps in horse shows, I would feel MS passionately seize my hand so I felt nothing else and dropped my rein. He at least was kind enough to do this only on the side the judges couldn’t see. (I will henceforth refer to MS as a he, but he is invisible, inaudible and rather unpredictable, most likely genderless.) Minor symptoms would bring me down to earth, I thought; forgetting was the reward. After a few years, MS decided I should quit riding and training regularly. He can be a bit possessive.  When the first disease-modifying therapies (DMTs) became available, faculty in my graduate program would stop me in the hall, asking if I was hopeful about the latest medication. My standard reply: “but that would mean saying good-bye to an old friend . . .”  “Yes, but MS is not such a good friend,” a poet wisely replied in his melodic Polish accent.  Gradually, MS visited more often, gripping my left leg, pulling it back with each stride, or hitting my head with the boxing glove of dizziness. I always came back to baseline after the flare miraculously left, so I could still forget about MS for long stretches of time. About a dozen years after diagnosis, I was put on disease-modifying therapy. I learned that this did not mean saying good-bye to my friend; rather, it reminded me that even when MS wasn’t making his presence known, he was still around. Depending upon which medication, injections at regular intervals would remind me that MS was imperceptibly slipping his arm across my shoulders, particularly close to my spine.  I no longer forget about his presence. In fact, I am grateful for the days I walk without having to think about each step, or when I can walk my dog, fingers deftly wrapping the leash, after the hard work re-learning how to use them. My amber-tinted contacts and glasses cut most glare, pain that never quite left after optic neuritis. The lenses turn my eyes coppery, beautified by illness and treatment. My vision is literally colored by my disease. Thanks to MS research I take medications I never thought possible to mask other lasting symptoms such as spasticity and pain, helping me forget, but not quite. The treatment makes me remember. Also, literally, a pill helps my memory.  MS ultimately cannot be forgotten. It is both my friend and foe, intermittent but lasting. If I am an MS activist, I know it is through awareness—my own, and creating it in others—in my teaching and writing, in everyday interactions, knowing that the disease is so deeply linked to who I am and what I do.  We mustn’t let anyone forget, least of all ourselves. Or Congress.  This week over 300 MS activists are meeting with federal legislators on Capitol Hill to urge continued funding for MS research and the FDA, standing up for those of us whose stance is words, for those of us whose stance is experience, for those of us who may know weakness, but turn our weakness into a source of strength.