I am so sorry you are stressed!! I understand your fears...both fearing getting a positive diagnosis or not getting one. You don't mention whether you have had any testing yet or if the doctor has mentioned MS as a possibility.
I am an RN, worse yet an ER nurse who of course make the worst patients lol!! We are terrible about googling our symptoms and diagnosing ourselves with of course the worst case scenarios. When I was diagnosed at age 49 in 2010, I had it narrowed down to MS and a brain tumor based on my symptoms. I was so relieved when it was MS lol!
As you can tell, I try to look at things from a positive perspective. What I can tell you is MS is not a fatal disease. It is bothersome for sure and it can impact your everyday life. MS is different for everyone. I have many local friends I've met through my journey who are your age living absolutely normal lives for the most part. Each of us learns to deal with our particular main symptoms which are bothersome in different ways. Most of my disabilities are invisible...fatigue, memory loss, eyesight loss ect. I have some physical ones as well...numbness, dizziness, imbalance, muscle fatigue and pain but again you can't see it.
The most important thing I found is to find a neurologist who specializes in caring for people with MS. I was referred to Ohio State who had an entire clinic which did nothing but research, clinical trials and treated MS patients. My physician and a colleague have since moved on to a competing hospital network in the Columbus area so I went with him! Having a physician who is actually doing research or at the least staying on top of the latest trends is so important! There are new drugs coming out all the time meant to help prevent flares.
Hopefully you will get a diagnosis either yay or nay. I know some people struggle just to get yay or nay. I was lucky because by the time I had symptoms mine was easily diagnosed. Social media like Facebook has tons of support groups online which are sometimes helpful. If you have a local support group I encourage you to attend those meetings as well. You will find lots of support from people in your shoes 😉. It's difficult for those who haven't been in our shoes to truly understand...I sincerely don't mean that in a negative way either. It's just difficult when someone looks ok on the outside to understand!
Life you are on FB and want to chat more, feel free to send me a friend request 😉. I am very open about my journey. I can't give advice but I'm more than happy to listen or share my experiences! I'm under Penny McBlane Ake
Hope this helps even a little bit! Sorry it was so long!