Today, I have to finally admit my MS is interfering with my life. I have been struggling to keep up performances for years but have just recently been contemplating the idea of quitting a job I truly love. Although others don't seem to notice, I notice that I am not as sharp as I used to be, not as energetic, not as driven to go out of my way for others....I have shared my love of science with others for over 40 years; if you count my special presentations given to my fellow elementary school classmates, and today I confidently informed my husband I was transplanting tomatoes as I placed dirt around a sunflower. It is not surprising that I made a mistake, but that I had questioned why the tomatoes looked so strange as I was transplanting them and assured myself that it must just be some genetic variation I had never seen before. After all, I had left three seed packets next to the potted plants and none of them were sunflowers. I am OK with these lapses. I can and do often laugh at myself but I am not OK with explaining these lapses to others and expecting them to understand. They can't. I can't. It just is what it is and I will do my best to deal with it.