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  • Age 30
  • Relationship Married

My Story 8

It was 3 weeks after having my baby girl Emari in June that my life changed forever. I was getting up in the middle of the night when Emari started crying to be breastfed and I remember feeling that I couldn't move. My eyesight was blurry, my speech was slurry, and my whole right side was numb I didn't know what just happened. Luckily my husband was home on vacation to help me. I laid back down after feeding Emari and just thought I was dreaming. I felt better in the morning but my right leg was still pretty numb and I was dragging my leg to walk. A week went by and I was still having trouble with my leg. My husband said it's time to go to the hospital because he became very concerned. Feeling scared about leaving my baby and possibly finding something wrong I didn't want to go but I did. Next thing you know I'm being transported to a hospital that deal with neurologic symptoms because it was thought I probably had a stroke. After a stay in the hospital and many MRIs and other tests done, nothing was found. As time went on I continue to have symptoms but ignoring them due to the fact I didn't want to go through that again and leave my baby. Finally my husband had enough seeing me struggle and me telling him nothing is wrong. I went to the doctor at the end of the year that it was predicted that I might have MS. Going into the new year of 2016 I was scared, nervous, confused, and upset because I didn't want to think I had MS. On January 26th I was officially diagnosed with Multiple sclerosis. My heart dropped and I didn't know what to think. My husband was devastated but he was very strong at the same time at my time of need. It was hard to tell family because as time went on I became very anxious and sacred to be around family or crowds because I felt like I would have a relapse at any minute and everyone would stare at me. I Started copaxone in February and I didn't want to take it because I was still breastfeeding Emari and it reminded me that I now have an illness that couldn't be cured. But with the strength of God and support of my husband I was strong enough to deal with this. I was adjusting well to my new lifestyle and I found out in May I was pregnant with our second child. I was excited but scared because I was thinking what if this child get ms. but unfortunately that pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 7 weeks. I was so sad I went into a state of depression. Finding out I have MS and then having a miscarriage all in the same year I didn't know how deal with two life changing situations. I became angry and just unlikable to be around but I knew all of this was for a reason. After coming out of my depression I finally realized if I want to move on with life I need to accept these situations. Once I did that things began to turn around. In August God blessed me and my husband to become pregnant again. Going into this pregnancy scared and not knowing if my symptoms will settle down like I've read but I prayed and hope for the best. Throughout my pregnancy I did have some relapsing symptoms but on May 29th 2017 I had my second baby girl Brielyn. Healthy and well we both have been doing well. I started back taking my medicine and I've been feeling pretty good. Now my goal is to go back to school in January and show my girls and people in general that you shouldn't let anything slow you down especially if you have a illness. Yes I do have my days but with God and support of family you can accomplish your life goals and dreams. I hope I encouraged someone with my story especially women who want to become pregnant or have children. it's hard sometimes raising a two year old and a newborn and having ms and still trying to run a house but you can do it!! Thank you all for allowing me to share my story!

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