I'm a Patient, I'm a Caretaker
I'm a Poet, I'm a Nurturer
I'm a daughter, I'm a Mother
But most of all I'm Blessed by my Creator
Despite MS trying to become my best friend forever!
Having MS has changed me from good to better!!
I've always taken care of myself, since I was 18, so yeah I'm frightfully independent.
I've always followed my own beat, I was into eating healthy, before living a healthy lifestyle became a fashion statement, so when MS came to visit not too long after I had my Saving Grace, my son Aiden, in 2003, needless to say I went into total denial!
At first I blamed all my symptoms on Stress, I had a lot on my plate, (rebellious teen, infant son) living at family, for them to save Face. The Gait issues, my Cognitive problems, the Fatigue, eye pain, Depression...I blamed it all on Stress & this was 2004, but because of my pain, the leaden Leg, & Balance issues, I begun PT, still not much progress so my PCP sent me to a Neurologist 6/04 after the first MRI...he said it looked like MS..I looked at him like he mad.
Come 2005, Depression hit, I gave up, and went back to my country,Trinidad, Depression & Stress tagging along like flea on a dog's back. I couldn't stand the heat, and this weird headache ride me for days...still I wasn't coming back, but I got a letter for my apartment, and with a lot of regret I returned after, almost 3 mths, right smack into madness. MS reared its ugly head, I ret. to the Neuro, he scheduled another MRI & a Spinal Tap in August/September 05!
Treatment recommended: AVONEX
My Reaction: Instant uncontrollable weeping, Depression, Denial, Anger!
I left, that office and never went back until two days ago.
Over the years, I've fought with Depression mostly, every time I thought of MS I would hit a mental block, then having to be strong for my sons, especially my Saving Grace, who has his own medical Challenges as an Infant Stroke Survivor, I couldn't allow MS too close.
Finally, though, I had to face this Magnificent MS, & this is my time to do that.
My son is balanced & enjoying a near to normal life, because of my healthy dietary choices for him & myself, so I too can finally Face all the intricacies of my condition.
So Bring it MS!
I'm not afraid of you anymore!
You came like a Tsunami & turned my life topsy turvy!
But instead of drowning, I learned to swim, & today I'm healthier than I ever was before!
Thank you MS for Inspiring me to Appreciate me More!