hello jentspie,What are you doing to make yourself happy? As long as I am not in pain I am happy, or as close to happy as I can get. When I experienced an exaserbation I for sure wanted to be left alone to lick my wounds, I didnt even want anyone touching me, ugh. And at some point I came to the conclusion that I needed to work on me understanding what was going on, when I wanted others 'to get it', because they never would know what it is like, living with ms, they could never imagine what the brain is doing, so i gave up on them getting it and spent the time on me 'getting it.' My friend Joe is 92 and he says life goes on, and we ought be working, we ought not stop the clock and lock people up. He now, will not let his kids shop for him, he lives alone and wants to go out to get his own groceries and prescriptions. He was a political prisoner for seven years back in Poland back in the fifties.I have always found that writing works for me, I dont pay attention if it is good English, I just write what comes out of my head, and somehow that gets the computer part of my brain to figure out what i need to feel better. Sometimes I just write a word, have pencil and paper ready in every room. Emptying the head even though it doesnt make sense, makes sense, giggle, like throwing out the garbage.